Message anxiety, and oh hey, how've you been?

[snowgall]

I've been away for a while, but tonight I decided to tackle my inbox which has been taunting me (142 messages, christ!) I've got serious inbox anxiety, and seeing that I had an avalanche of messages waiting for me actually made it harder for me to even attempt to look at them :/

But the weird thing is that easily 75% of the messages were simply LJ alerts of people's birthdays and whatnot. Apparently I've missed ALL the birthdays. Very sorry about that!

The other 25% of the messages were all nice comments on earlier entries, so as usual my anxiety was entirely unfounded, but there's no talking sense to it.

But even after going through it all, somehow or other there are still 2 unread messages somewhere in there which I CANNOT find. I went back though several pages, but I gave up after a while. So if I never responded to one of your messages, I'm also very sorry about that, and I don't know how to fix it.

The US election has gotten me seriously depressed (as if I needed any help with that!) but I've been venting as much of my anger and frustration as possible over on tumblr. Also calling my congressperson, but he's a moron and a Trump supporter, so it feels hopeless.

Hope everyone is doing well. I'm way behind on all reading too. I've mostly gotten sidetracked into the Stucky fandom, and as with most things I get into, I get majorly obsessed for an intense period of time and then I cool off again. I think I'm in a cooling-off period now.

Anyway, just thought I'd poke my head back in and say "hi".

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[snowgall]

*grins*

Yes, having unead messages is such a plague. And it's something that gets so out of my control too - especially in my gmail account. It's this horrible cycle of too much mail (mostly junk and/or spam) which comes at a time when my emotional reserves are too low to deal, so I'll put off looking at it/sorting through it. But then it just builds up and up making it ever harder to sort through and deal. It becomes inescapable!

I'll tell you a secret - I actually have *at this very moment* 1,420 unread messages in my gmail inbox! This mostly happened maybe 5 years or so ago when I had one of my periodic mental meltdowns and couldn't deal with incoming mail for a month or so. When I finally got back to it, I could only deal with the really important stuff that Google sorted into priority and kept ignoring the rest. And the non-important stuff kept accumulating faster than I could sort through it. It was like trying to bail out of a sinking ship :(

I occasionally have a burst of energy and start trying to sift through it (again, mostly junk and spam, all of it stupidly outdated) but then get discouraged and give up. So there it sits, like a constant bane of my existence. At this point I know I should just delete it all out of spite, but I worry something semi-important is buried down there and I'll lose it forever.

Welcome to my psychosis.

[capitu]

Holy shit. Oh my god, 1,4K unread messages? I'm dying! :O

When I go on vacations and come back to, say 100 or so it drives me crazy. Crazy, I can't deal with that. I have to start checking and cleaning or else—! *lol*